Monday, September 28, 2009
i've been doing some thinking recently... about life, the future, my friendships, kinships, God.
God has been extremely good to me. blessing me with so much... though its my first time applying to an overseas uni with many paperwork to do. i don't feel lost. in fact, it felt tat God is right here with me every step of the way. From granting me this scholarship, to getting enough money on time to pay for the initial payment for the tuition fees myself first, to having friends now gg there with me, and so much more to come. i learn to place my trust in him.
recently some r/s were put to the test. honestly am a little lost..the heart and mind is not in peace. the heart desires not what the mind wants. yesterday night while lying on the bed, God seem to be telling me that, the way i felt treated by X seems to be the way i'm treating my family. If i can give so much to the pple outside, why can't i focus this energy on my family as well? And on my pillow, i decided, i will try.
22 this year. i constantly pause and asked myself, what do i want to do with this life? it felt meaningless to just go work everyday. if only the world could stop spinning so that i can pause and think, but sadly, it doesn't. when i wake up the next day, no matter how i'm feeling, i would still hv to go to work. where i am suppose to be. but life is more than that.
the counselor who gave the training i went said today said,' A man in his 30s if have not been able to form meaningful r/s, would find that his life is very empty'. it struck me that i do not wan to wait till i'm 30 to realize the root of my emptiness, instead, i dun wan that day to come. prevention is better than cure isn't it?
Jesus says "In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: 'It is more blessed to give than to receive.' " Acts 20:35
I want to give back to the society what it has bless me with and more. Why are we always waiting to go overseas to help. Why can't we first start helping and giving where God has first placed us to be.
i remember reading this, it asks,' why bother helping this one person? you can help one but can you help the rest?"
and the reply was something i never forget. " i can't save the world, but if i can make one small difference to this one life. why not?" we ain't superheros. we can't save the world. but if we all just save one. imagine the impact it would create. that one child may be no one to you. but what if.. he was?
